Hey there, it’s Sara here. I apologize for kind of falling off on posts recently but I knew it was time to write again. I am extremely thankful for all of you tune into my YouTube channel, especially The Detox Diaries. It’s been a huge blessing for me to share my life journey and my addiction problem. It’s a long road ahead still and my journey is still just beginning. I’m currently 64 days sober and I never thought I’d be able to say that. But it’s a huge blessing and ballsy to finally be able to face things head on without drinking or running away from things.
Not that life was ever super complicated for me but I do what I have to do stay sober since sobriety is my priority and whatever else to stay sane after which means not giving into my flesh and temptations. It’s been over 90 days in my dating and semi social media fast and its been refreshing. My standards are slowly coming into play. I’ve regained my dignity and integrity but it’s an everyday thing. It’s great that I have this year in recovery to put God, myself and sobriety first and I couldn’t do it without my fellowship in my program especially the women there and my church. They’ve constantly loved me when I haven’t been able to love myself and that is happening again slowly.
I’m a warrior, this disease, having an addictive personality, especially alcoholism is nothing to mess with but I know there is so much more to life than hitting a bottle and I can only become the best person and woman God has molded me to be without picking up.
I read my bible daily, plan on meditating more and pray daily more than once a day. They work for me and my program. My faith and relationship with God/Jesus molds me all the time and the surrender to His will keeps me sane, not tempted and together. I refuse to be that mess I was over 90 days ago. I can do better, create the life I’ve always wanted to own up to and have endless possibilities in sobriety. I’m healthier, sleep better, can still cook like a boss, and so much more. The fact this all just the beginning amazes me but I see, small progress all the time.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:a] The old has gone, the new is here! 18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. 20 We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. 21 God made him who had no sin to be sinb] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”- 2 Corinthians 5:17-21
I’ve bee blessed to get to know Jesus again on a personal level the past few months and see Him in everything I do. I’ve been blessed with God’s forgiveness for my mistakes and to be this new creation in Him. For once in my life, and that’s not to say it’s not difficult at times I am okay with being patient in steadfast, to be patient and content with waiting and moving when God says it’s okay, embracing this season of fasting and waiting with gratitude and grateful for everyday I get to see the sunrise and sunset.
Keep tuning and subscribe to my channel for my Vlogs weekly, I pray they open your heart and mind.
Be blessed XO Sara
PS: Maybe I’ll share some recipes soon, I’m cooking as much as I can and its been a blessing SOBER!!!!